My attitude sucks this morning. I explain some of the reason in my last post, but there are a variety of factors:
1. Despite my best efforts to be the family man I’m supposed to be, I always find myself coming up short.
2. The weather has been a gray, depressing soup since I got back from California, where the weather was perfect. This makes for a hard re-entry.
3. I seem to have no control over my days lately. This would make anyone cranky.
This too shall pass, like all the bad moods that came before. For now, my challenge is to keep it all together and not give in to self pity. I’m going to lean on the 12 Steps hard today. I have no choice.
Writing this is part of that. By writing about my shitty mood, I’m wringing the venom from my soul, and that will serve me well as the day goes on.
I have another tool I’m going to use to re-start the day and send it in the right direction. I’m going to write a little gratitude list.
This morning, I’m grateful for the following:
–My family still puts up with me
–I have some great friends who help me along
–I remain sober and abstinent.
–I’m done traveling for a bit, so I can be back in my routine.
–My father seems to be slowly getting better nearly a month after his stroke.
–The sun is finally breaking through the clouds. I hope it stays that way.
–Church is in a couple hours. Time with God will re-set my attitude. or so I hope.
Seize the day, people — no matter how imperfect the day may be.