Ever since I got over my fear and anxiety I’ve had a bottomless appetite to do it all. I want to travel everywhere. I want to see everything. And I want to participate in as many events as possible. Sometimes that gets me in trouble. Here’s an example.
Mood music: “Serve the Servants” by Nirvana: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aztw2s3PZzY
Columbus Day Weekend there are two events I badly want to be a part of. One is something my security friends put together called HacKid. It’s going to be an epic experience for the kids, and I’ve been planning to be there.
The idea is to provide an interactive, hands-on experience for kids and their parents which includes things like:
–Online safety (kids and parents!)
–Make a podcast/vodcast
–How to deal with CyberBullies
–Interactive robot building
–How the Internet works
–Basic to advanced network/application security
–Website design/introduction to blogging
–Manipulating hardware and software for fun
–Meeting & interacting with law enforcement
–Building a netbook
–Low-impact martial arts/self-defense training
Up until this weekend, it was a given that I’d be dragging Sean and Duncan there.
Then, yesterday, the phone rang.
It was someone involved with the Cursillo retreat weekends at St. Basil’s in Methuen, Mass. It’s a Catholic retreat, and it’s very intense.
He asked me to be on team for the men’s retreat happening THE SAME WEEKEND as HacKid.
On the surface, it’s a no-brainer, right? HacKid is going to be a blast, and I’ve already written a CSOonline.com column throwing my support behind it.
But it’s not that easy.
As readers of this blog know by now, finding my Faith was central to my learning to manage a mental disorder and all the addictions that came with it. Without God, I am nowhere. That may not sound cool to some people, but I don’t care.
There’s also the fact that last weekend I was on here grousing about how I was giving God the short end of the stick lately.
I want to do both, but I can only do one. For a control freak like me, that truly sucks.
But I know there’s really no choice for me here. I have to choose Cursillo. My own Cursillo more than two years ago made a huge, lasting impact and I need to give back.
When God comes calling, you don’t say no. That’s a real pain in the ass, but it’s what I believe.
So I’ll be on team for the men’s weekend, and I’ll give it my all. The timing is also good because right after that I’ll start helping out with Haverhill’s RCIA program. My spiritual side will be finely tuned by then. Not perfect. Definitely not without sin. But I’ll be in the groove.
Meantime, I’ll just have to do other things to help HacKid succeed, not that they need my help. When my friend Chris Hoff gets motivated to do something, it’s a foregone conclusion that he’s going to get it done.
But I CAN write about it and make sure as many people know about it as possible, so that’s what I’ll do.
It’s still going to suck missing the event.
But my security friends will understand.