The author has some words for a kid fighting cancer.
Mood music for this post: “Heart-shaped Box” by Nirvana:
Expect a couple shorter posts today. I have a few things on my mind and don’t need many words to get out what I’m feeling.
Here’s the first thing on my mind:
She didn’t mind that I called her Mouth. In fact, I think she reveled in it.
For the sake of her privacy, I’ll keep her name out of this post. I’ll just stick with the nickname, which only a few people will get.
Yesterday, my step-sister told me that Mouth has breast cancer.
She’s way too young to have breast cancer.
The good news is that they think they caught it early. The bad news is that it may well mean the breast has to be removed.
Mouth probably doesn’t read this blog, but in case she ever stumbles upon it, I just want to say this:
You may be scared as hell right now, and who could blame you? The C-word is one of the most feared words there is. You’ll no doubt go through a lot of difficult days fighting this one.
But you’ve always been a tough kid, so I know you will fight well.
That you’re going to beat this is a foregone conclusion in my mind. And while you can’t imagine anyone saying this, you’ll probably fight the battle cheerfully.
And after you beat this, you’re going to be better than ever before. Much better. You’ll find an inner strength you never knew you had. And you’ll use that strength to help others. Because that’s who you are.
You’ll also have a new appetite for life.
How do I know these things? Well, I’ve never had cancer, though I know I’m a very good candidate for colon cancer at some point because of the damage Crohn’s Disease inflicted on me as a kid.
But I did survive a nasty childhood with that disease, and I’ve survived a lot worse at the hands of mental illness and addiction in more recent years.
Only after making it through the worst did I realize how precious life is. I found a sense of joy I had never experienced before.
It’s impossible to see that from where you’re standing now.
But someday you’ll understand.
Now go out there and kick some ass.