Every time the author gets a migraine, he’s reminded of how every day used to be.
Mood music for this post: “Check My Brain,” by Alice in Chains:
Yesterday I came home from work with a slight headache. It was a hectic day, so I chalked it up to coming down from the whirlwind.
As I made the kids’ lunches for the next school day and cooked supper, it got worse. By the time I settled in to play a game of Battleship with Sean, it was a migraine.
I spent the next nine hours in bed. The ice pack was useless. I felt like throwing up. Finally, I drifted off to sleep and that ended it. I woke up at 4:30 a.m., a half hour later than usual, and the head still hurt, though not at migraine levels.
As I write this, my ears feel clogged but I’m otherwise fine.
Funny thing about migraines. They create black holes in your life and you lose out on precious moments, like playing a game of Battleship with the kids. Sean was winning big-time at the point I had to break away. He had sunk three of my ships and I sunk only one of his. Duncan took over for me when I went to bed, and I’m not sure who prevailed in the end. I am sure Sean wouldn’t have done as well if his Dad wasn’t distracted by pain.
I also missed my Wednesday-night Arise group, which really pissed me off. I get so much from that group, and to miss out is to miss out big-time.
I used to get migraines all the time as a child. The Prednisone I took for Crohn’s Disease would give me the kind of brain pain that sent me to the bathroom throwing up. Entire evenings were shot to hell, often multiple times a week. School work suffered. It was almost as bad as the Chrohn’s Disease itself. Well, not quite as bad, but pretty bad.
All the nights I spent alone in my basement, and then on the couch because I was too mentally spent to do anything else — I find myself back there.
Those too were black hole moments. Life was put on hold and I missed out on many, many things.
I’ll tell you one good thing about the migraines I get today: They remind me that there’s no turning back on the life I’ve since built. When I wake up and the pain is gone, it’s one of the best feelings on Earth.
Today I’ll take Erin’s advice and call the doctor for a medicine I can take when a Migraine is coming on.
Erin has had more than her fair share of migraines over the years, but she found a medication that helps. I should listen to her more often.
Today I’ll make up for lost time by enjoying a security event at MIT. I give the keynote talk on social networking security threats later. Should be fun.